sob.. sad

sigh... i'm so dead.. mummy dun allow me to join netball... i'm so so so damn sad. sigh... sob sob sob. i love it. but she doesn't allow... she says it's too late and the time i spend at home is so little. and smthing bout the sun which is so stupid. dumb rite? i wanna cry. guess she's going through menopause... she even wants to give away may dear dog. sigh. total rubbish. well.. nvm. wateva. i cun b botehred with her. really. she's crazy...

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long time since i last blogged...i'm in netball... but i feel like i'm so far away from the people in there... is it me? or is it true... i have no idea at all... it's just making me feel so left out and miserable at times... we r supposed to be friends and yet u treat me like an enemy now... someone invisible to you... why? why do that? we r a team afterall... rite? wat's the problem... sigh... but nvm... i do like netball.. i love wat i'm playing and doing now... i just have to do my best in it... and stop feeling inferior bout myself... it's ok to be lonely... but i should not lose myself... i feel tat i'm a loner... don't ask why... cuz i seriously am not sure... i'm empty...

picturessssss... woot.

WHEE!!!

haha... i'm happy to say tat i got into the stardust finals... lol... really happy. gosh. it was really great to be able to get into the finals and gain experience and get to know more friends thru tis. it was a fruitful experience definitely... going thru 3 rds in order to get into the finals. scary thoug.. it was a close shave for me. anyway, i'm happy to annouce that i have more pictures to upload. wahahaha.. tada!

crappy...

ok.. the whole week was crappy... friends breaking away from our class... sigh.. we're changing classes!!! gosh... some stuff happened in class too... cun tok bout it.. it's supposed to be a secret... boring day... yesterday i got to noe a magician.. darn cool la.. gonna learn tricks from him real soon... cool dude. lol... well, got crazy and started wearing girl's sch uniforms... i love cedar girls. haha... cool uniform.. smart.. got crazy with chij uniform. haha.. will post the picture online if got the chance... yawns.. i think i'm like breaking down soon... i'm tired of my life... again.. sigh.. crazy rite? ok... resolutions... i'll study real hard.. try to upload photos more often to let u guys visualize... ok? well.. tat's all.. tada!